rough draft prayer

 

To desire is not to want 

but to need. 

Desire is a recognition 

and surrender to God’s Will. 

God’s Will  is the hunger 

of reality. I desire wrath,

I desire judgement. 

I confess the sin of Pride. 

Father, help me to 

not be arrogant enough to 

believe that  I can forgive 

every sin, every transgression, 

every murder;  that I can redeem 

what is truly lost and evil. 

Almighty Lord, 

I pray for your Wrath. 

For the enemies of Good to feel fear, 

for their families to starve, 

for them to be beaten in the streets, 

for them to watch their teeth rot away, 

for their humiliation, 

for their shame to be overwhelming

until death. 

Almighty Lord, 

I pray for your Judgement

on this Nation, 

for their hatred and lies, 

for their vacuous, soulless eyes. 

Strengthen the hand of their adversaries, 

quicken their marches, 

guide their swords to wicked flesh. 

Heavenly Father, 

forgive me for I am full of pride, 

arrogant to believe that I can 

forgive what I cannot fathom, 

what I cannot stand nor stomach; 

arrogant to believe that I possess 

your soft and brutal grace, 

your irrational and gratuitous mercy.