The Wonderful History

I would like to change.

I heard you could do it by breathing.

I heard you could hook your finger around your jaw

and it would become a prayer.

I have heard a lot about rituals.

I have heard a lot about skin.

I have joined religious mailing lists.

I heard you could become organized but

no one will tell me what that means.

I have failed to think king-thoughts.

I am considering spending money,

I consider and consider while expenses grow.

Some advice would be good,

but devastating to receive. 

I heard it in more that one source:

The scholar spends years on his creation,

divine mechanical portal,

metal mouth of god,

only to take a little nap

and miss its sole activation.

Even reading more about this

half-remembered fact half-fact

would be a change, in me. 

I heard you could.