Friday, January 2, 2026

What the coach in my brain is barking every single day without exception

get up!
get up! 
get up!
now do yoga!
go hike up the steep hill next to the middle school!
turn around and observe los angeles!
Observe it!!! THAT'S YOUR CITY!!
What is everybody doing down there?
Now move along. 
Walk walk walk. 
Turn the corner and see the Hollywood sign and the observatory. 
Isn't that great? IS IT?
Run home. Feel it! Feel the anger in your chest at the people who did you wrong!
Drink water!!!
Eat breakfast. Make tea or coffee. Do puzzles. 
THIS IS IT. Will the day crash and burn or not?
Don't touch your phone. DOn't touch it! 
You touched it. You fucking idiot
Lose two hours
It's Okay!! Get back on track! Start a timer!
Do the disshhesssssss. You little freak. You love the dishes. You actually do. It's laundry that kills your soul deader than dead
Make the bed!!!! That's a hard one
Ok now before anything else goes wrong, WRITE! WRITE, YOU CRIMINAL!
Yes!!!
(Silence for 20 mins of writing)
Yes! Yes!!! You did it! You did it, you fool! (Crying and sobbing)
Now do whatever. You did it.  
(holding my face in her hands) God, you did it you beautiful idiot

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