on a triangle rock
slipping into the lake,
we wonder together
if these are the good times
before it all falls apart.
when will the shoe drop,
when will we be refugees,
when will we suffer those
losses that have been
so eloquently imagined
for us by prophets
in whose world we still live.
when will we lose this;
the meal waiting for
us across the lake,
the ease of playing
in water, pretending
to drown struggling to
stay afloat grasping at
each others soft, well-fed bodies.
when will this all be taken,
when will we actually be
drowning with nothing to cling to:
not even the prophecies we read
in wonder, prophecies for
a world that has come already,
oracles that allow us to
grieve what has been never ours.
when will we have something
to grieve, when will something
be worth dying for, when will
our life together truly begin.
there has has to be a word
for anticipating the loss
of something we never had,
as if grieving having nothing to grieve.
instead of speaking,
we cough up lake water and kiss,
making childish noises as we cling
together making our bodies a sinking raft:
unsure if these are the good times
before it all passes away,
before war or famine,
before we learn that one of us has died
before we are mothers,
before our lives begin.
as if grieving nothing to grieve (!!)
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