She told me the old Sears store on Bedford--
that proud art deco pigeon with all its doors
walled up; awkward, lonely, menacing
the corner around from where she lived back
when we were dating--was going to be turned
into self-storage units. This felt fitting:
first they sell it to you, then they charge you
a monthly fee for the rest of your life
to warehouse the stuff there on the same site
where you found it. That is, first
you swipe on someone, then you spend
the rest of your life carefully cramming
all the crap you accumulated--names,
associations, pet peeves, preferences--
into the industrial labyrinth of your mind,
hoping to forget it’s in there, knowing you’ll never
get around to sorting through it all.
In that sense, “sears” is a pretty good word
for what we put ourselves through.
carefully cramming all the crap you accumulated, yes
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